Relationships
September 22, 2007
HELP ME
by kase85 <lessthanjake50@hotmail.com>
Story goes.... have had a girlfriend for 3 years. Over the last 4/5 months it's not been going well at all. It wasn't awful, but at the same time I don't think any of us were happy.
Anyway, I went to a festival a few weeks back and met this girl. I ended up hanging out with her all of the weekend and had a great time. I cam back very confused, but I didn't have time to deal with it because I went on holiday for 10 days the day after I got back from the festival.
While I was on holiday me and this other girl sent a few e-mails & a few texts. At this point it became very clear that we both felt something for each other.
Before I went on this holiday my girlfriend came round mine to see me off, she gave me a lift to the station and she was coming out with comments like "this will be the last time you're in my car before you split up with me". I found this very upsetting.
A few days into my holiday I went online and started chatting to my girlfriend on MSN. During this chat she admitted she read my text messages on my phone and saw one from this other girl. The text messages were nothing really bad, saw one that said this other girl was going to miss me and 10 days was too long apart.
After this chat, I really started to think it was time to end the relationship. It clearly wasn't working and I don't think either of us were happy.
The next night the deal was sealed, my girlfriend got very drunk and started sending me abusive text messages and called me and was saying stuff to me that was neither here nor there. So I ended up hanging up.
I got back a week later & I met with my girlfriend & we spoke and decided to split up. As far as break ups go... I felt it went really well. It seemed pretty mutual. The problem was, as we were about to say our goodbyes.. I noticed there were some cuts on her arm. She had a history of self harm. So, I asked her what they were.. and she ended up admitting she done it herself after the night she got really drunk. This really upset me, & while I still thought splitting up was for the best long term I wanted to help her.
The problem is, 2 days later, I had to go away for 6 more nights so I was stuck.
Anyway, during the whole of this time I was still in contact with this other girl, who at this point I was getting on real well with. More than anything else, I just enjoyed hanging out with her. It was refreshing talking to someone where there was no baggage. It was just easy.
So, I went away, & this girl came up on the Friday and we spent the day together. Had a real good time and shared a kiss.
I came back from this trip and ended up hanging with this girl every day for the next few days... then what made this thing worst... was one of this girls friends called when we were together and she said I was her boyfriend. At the time she said it.. I didn't care. I was like... well, it's going that way anyway.
Its been just over a week since then and I now feel everything has caught up with me. The idea of jumping into a new relationship isn't something I'm comfortable with.. and I've started to really miss the ex girlfriend.
I still feel splitting up was the best thing in the long run, but I miss talking to her and having her around.
She called me the other day and we had a real nice chat. But, last night she got drunk again and started telling me thing that were only ever going to upset me.
Like, she now smokes... I feel like she is losing it & I want to help her.
So, I need help... telling this other girl that, while I like her, it's become to intense too soon and I don't want jump in with two feet & I need to do this with out crushing her and leaving us open for a future at some point.
But, most important.. is, with the ex.. what do I do? Do I try and help her deal? Do I call her?? What?? I was so upset last night.... help me
Published: September 24, 2007
Editor: stacy
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