October 5, 2000

Awkwardness + Dating
   by athanasios <artthegreek@palm.net>

Ok, so here's my PFFT! I am a 20 year old male and I live in New Hampshire. I must say, it's very boring here and the only time I can really have some fun is when I spend a few days in Boston, MA every once in a while. It seems like every girl that I meet falls into one of three groups: 1- Seems really cool and like the kind of girl I'd like to get to know. 2- Totally clueless and acts as though she's better than everyone else, or 3- Not very attractive and doesn't have a clue how to have a good time. Oops, here is my PFFT! I hate having to feel awkward when I'm around a girl that I think is cool and one that I'd like to get to know. I wish I could just go from being interested in her to already getting past the awkwardness and feeling comfortable when I'm around her and vise-versa with her feeling awkward.

Why is it that we as people can't just be ourselves? I constantly see people trying to fit in and hiding themselves under what they think they need to do or look like. I can honestly say that I am who I am and I stay as real as possible. I really like this girl I have recently met at work and we have sooo much in common, yet I can't stand this stupid feeling I get when I'm around her. It's almost like I turn into a whole different person. I can barely even talk or just be myself. I've thought about asking her out and also thought of a few ways to try to get to know her, yet I just don't know how to "go for it." I can tell that she's interested in me, yet I don't know how much or if she'd also like to get to know me. Why is it that women can't ask men out? Is there some law out there that prohibits this from happening? Must every "move" be made by the guy? PFFT! to old-fashioned dating rules. PFFT! to awkwardness. PFFT! to me finally meeting an awesome girl yet she works with me and I don't know what to do! Help! Anyone know or care to offer some advice for a lonely 20 year old male ( 6' 2" tall, brown hair, green eyes, 135 lbs.) yeah, just thought I'd throw that in there in case any cool girls in Boston that are awkward-proof might be reading. PFFT!!

Published: October 6, 2000
Editor: stacy